Fitting in is hard to do
if you stick out too much,
I used to enjoy solitude
now I crave acceptance's touch.
Being different can be either
a blessing or a curse,
it's not till you feel rejected
then difference really hurts,
it really sucks to be so rare
cause when you are,
you don't belong anywhere.
No one loved him,no one wanted him,
is the reason he became the Phantom,
it wasn't until he heard her sing,
that love had a whole new meaning.
Now he was her angel of music,
and she would do anything to impress it,
to Christine he could do no wrong,
as he mesmerized her with his song.
So the Phantom tried to further her career,
but the Vicomte Raoul had to interfere,
now Christine was leaving him,
but the Phantom refused to be lonely again.
So the Phantom composed "Don Juan"
where Christine exposed to everyone,
the face that was hidden behind the mask
now came the hardest task.
To force Christine to make a decision,
to either
A good night's rest isn't easy
for a person like me to recieve,
though I do my best to relax
and to let my mind relieve,
itself of restlessness thoughts
that combat my drowziness.
As much as I want a good night's sleep
it always slips away,
sleep afterall is a necessity
that every person needs,
so why is it so hard for me
to slip into a peaceful dream?
I used to soar so high
with alot of confidence,
I'd put my doubts aside
and glide with elegance,
then depression shot me down
and changed my entire life.
My sky is no longer blue
instead it's black and grey,
I don't know what to do
since I've tried to find a way,
to fly high again.
I flap my wings
but it only brings
more pain to my broken wings.
The feeling always consumes
the little happiness that remains,
as the regrets continue to cloud my thoughts
that try so hard to obtain,
pleasent memories that are gone for good
so in the end I'm left drained.
The feeling is never satisfied,
it always ends up craving,
for more control over me.
As the joy continues leaving,
I eventually realize,
the reason why I feel empty,
is because of the sadness,
which ate up my happiness,
This is why I'm starving.
For a while now I've been very uptight
and I've been feeling so alone,
wondering if I'll win this fight
about being on my own,
as I cope with the pain
my problems keep coming,
while my feelings begin to stain
my actions and my sanity.
Now I realize I need to go back
to who I was before,
but it won't be that easy
since my feelings have taken control over,
every thought I have and every move I make,
soon enough I'm gonna break.
The depression now has me,
making me fade from my original being.
To most I'm the peppy happy chic
who could never be depressed,
or the girl who's world is a ray of sunshine
that feels happiness at it's best,
but they're wrong.
My sun has changed into a moon
that illuminates a foggy night,
in which refuses the tiniest bit of bright
ray of sun that longs to be trite,
but they don't believe me.
The sheer fact of that further shadows
all the darkness that is incessant,
now my sun is a permanent moon
which is forever dreary and crescent.
Whenever the clouds turn grey,
my mood changes slightly,
I feel more relaxed and serene
as I sit patiently and quietly,
for the clouds to release droplets
to wash the earth again.
Maybe its the calming sound of the shower
that takes me from reality,
whatever the reason is,
the outcome's always the same,
natur's shower let's me forget my pain,
I'm very fond of the rain.
He is named after a vampire
and is blacker than outer space,
his fur's as soft as velvet,
and he has an adorable face.
I got the kitten in 2005
so I've had him for a while,
but that doesn't mean my love's eased up,
saying I don't care is futile.
Of course he gets in trouble,
but doesn't everyone?
He's still my little dark angel,
which I'll always take care of.
This poem's for my baby boy,
I love you Louie.
Every person has different sides to them
that even thier buddies don't know,
but some of those people get frustrated
and decide to tell even though,
some friends say it's okay,
and that the dreadful mood,
or the restlessness will go away.
When in your gut you know,
that its not gonna be alright,
you summon all the sense you know
just so you can live another night.
Some say your desperate for attention,
but that adds on to the intention,
to give up altogether.
Which you often think you should,
cause from the looks of it,
I'll be misunderstood forever.
Every person has different sides to them
that even thier buddies don't know,
but some of those people get frustrated
and decide to tell even though,
some friends say it's okay,
and that the dreadful mood,
or the restlessness will go away.
When in your gut you know,
that its not gonna be alright,
you summon all the sense you know
just so you can live another night.
Some say your desperate for attention,
but that adds on to the intention,
to give up altogether.
Which you often think you should,
cause from the looks of it,
I'll be misunderstood forever.
He is named after a vampire
and is blacker than outer space,
his fur's as soft as velvet,
and he has an adorable face.
I got the kitten in 2005
so I've had him for a while,
but that doesn't mean my love's eased up,
saying I don't care is futile.
Of course he gets in trouble,
but doesn't everyone?
He's still my little dark angel,
which I'll always take care of.
This poem's for my baby boy,
I love you Louie.
Whenever the clouds turn grey,
my mood changes slightly,
I feel more relaxed and serene
as I sit patiently and quietly,
for the clouds to release droplets
to wash the earth again.
Maybe its the calming sound of the shower
that takes me from reality,
whatever the reason is,
the outcome's always the same,
natur's shower let's me forget my pain,
I'm very fond of the rain.
To most I'm the peppy happy chic
who could never be depressed,
or the girl who's world is a ray of sunshine
that feels happiness at it's best,
but they're wrong.
My sun has changed into a moon
that illuminates a foggy night,
in which refuses the tiniest bit of bright
ray of sun that longs to be trite,
but they don't believe me.
The sheer fact of that further shadows
all the darkness that is incessant,
now my sun is a permanent moon
which is forever dreary and crescent.
For a while now I've been very uptight
and I've been feeling so alone,
wondering if I'll win this fight
about being on my own,
as I cope with the pain
my problems keep coming,
while my feelings begin to stain
my actions and my sanity.
Now I realize I need to go back
to who I was before,
but it won't be that easy
since my feelings have taken control over,
every thought I have and every move I make,
soon enough I'm gonna break.
The depression now has me,
making me fade from my original being.
The feeling always consumes
the little happiness that remains,
as the regrets continue to cloud my thoughts
that try so hard to obtain,
pleasent memories that are gone for good
so in the end I'm left drained.
The feeling is never satisfied,
it always ends up craving,
for more control over me.
As the joy continues leaving,
I eventually realize,
the reason why I feel empty,
is because of the sadness,
which ate up my happiness,
This is why I'm starving.
I used to soar so high
with alot of confidence,
I'd put my doubts aside
and glide with elegance,
then depression shot me down
and changed my entire life.
My sky is no longer blue
instead it's black and grey,
I don't know what to do
since I've tried to find a way,
to fly high again.
I flap my wings
but it only brings
more pain to my broken wings.
A good night's rest isn't easy
for a person like me to recieve,
though I do my best to relax
and to let my mind relieve,
itself of restlessness thoughts
that combat my drowziness.
As much as I want a good night's sleep
it always slips away,
sleep afterall is a necessity
that every person needs,
so why is it so hard for me
to slip into a peaceful dream?
No one loved him,no one wanted him,
is the reason he became the Phantom,
it wasn't until he heard her sing,
that love had a whole new meaning.
Now he was her angel of music,
and she would do anything to impress it,
to Christine he could do no wrong,
as he mesmerized her with his song.
So the Phantom tried to further her career,
but the Vicomte Raoul had to interfere,
now Christine was leaving him,
but the Phantom refused to be lonely again.
So the Phantom composed "Don Juan"
where Christine exposed to everyone,
the face that was hidden behind the mask
now came the hardest task.
To force Christine to make a decision,
to either
Fitting in is hard to do
if you stick out too much,
I used to enjoy solitude
now I crave acceptance's touch.
Being different can be either
a blessing or a curse,
it's not till you feel rejected
then difference really hurts,
it really sucks to be so rare
cause when you are,
you don't belong anywhere.
The Rapist
By
Debra Phönix
(palordfenix@hotmail.com)
I need to write this... I really need to write this.
Was in my bed, at night. I almost remember the smell and the feel,
I had a criminal inside of me.
Dear Lord, why me? I was a victim of my own skin.
In the loneliness of my own, of my bed i tasted drops of my sweat,
And the sheets were singing a lullaby for the dying child in
Their arms.
The fairies of my madness were trying to rip out all my cloths and
Offered my innocence to my beautiful criminal.
His scent was powerful and animal, if all my body had been dry, the only
Wet place hade been my deepest part of me.
I didn't